I spent summer sinking to the bottom of swimming pools
There are a thousand places on my mind
but i'd rather be with you

You are forgetful on your best days
but I hope that you remember me
I almost wanted to kill myself
but i'd rather stay awake with you instead

I have spent so long pushing you away
because no one ever cares for long enough to keep me sane
I know it hurts, I know you try
I am sorry for my shaky hands and messy hair
I have been so wrong that I've forgotten how to be right

 My blood is toxic, my heartstrings worn thin
I am but a hollow structure stuffed with medicine
To be with me would be the end of the world
And all your goodness does not deserve that

 I thought if I can't hold you like a lover
then I won't hold you at all

I let my heart build a monument and dedicate it to you
without realizing i'd made it into my home 

I told you to leave me alone
but I wanted you to stay
I told you to leave me alone
but you loved me anyway

You are after-burn warmth against my freezing skin
the reason I stay warm on cold January days
Your smile could fuel the moonlight with its fever
Your heart of gold resides in the lines around your eyes

You told me i could be anything i wanted
when all i wanted to be is everything i'm not
Thank you for taking care of me
Even when I tell you it's not allowed

 You own my heart and it's no one else's
This feeling is bone deep and it pulses like cavity

I've got two bus tickets and a burning faith
that we'll get out of here somehow 

 Though the nights are long
Even though everything could go wrong
I know the day will come and along with it
a place in the world where we belong

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